Scratched- (your) Name (is on) That Tune

There are so many lyrics So many melodies and harmonies that sing …. of you.

It seems like just yesterday that I loved you till the end of time! 

That I wanted to dance with you outside in the rain!

That you were my Love song, one of them at least!

That I wanted to rock you eternally!

I thought that I would love you endlessly

It seems like just yesterday that I thought that Love had found its way to me!
I had thought that we would be Lovers!

But 

These tables keep turning

And 

Now the harmonies and melodies sing..

Who the fuck do you think I is?

You really Don’t Know Bout My Crew

Press Triggah We No Press People Button

Bwoy no put yuh hat weh yuh cyaan reach it!

Pussy 

This is a warning warning warning!

The Love songs have got dark because of you!

There are so many lyrics 

So many melodies and harmonies that sing …. of you.

You are not who I can run to when I need love or to fill this empty space with laughter!

You no longer bring me joy

And

Now

After all of this time

After all of these times!

I am weary

All that time spent preparing!

You are clearly not who I should be preparing for

But 

You really did feel like the sweetest thing that I have known

And

As I write the tears are rolling rolling rolling 

And

I feel like I just died

But

I am not liking this ghetto romance

I can no longer stomach this Emotional Roller Coaster- Loving you was never good for Me

You have had me chasing Fools Gold!!

I have to check out of this heartbreak hotel 

But

I can’t get you out of my mind!

And

I still want to give you caramel kisses

No she, can love you like I do! 

It’s amazing that even after all of the all of it

A small part of me still hears the melodies singing…..

Don’t Go!!!

Please stay

I need you here with me!

There are so many lyrics 

So many melodies and harmonies that sing …. of you.

How could you break my heart! – (we went through it all together! You let me down!)

How could you not see past the heaven in my eyes!

You have taken my happy feelings 

We are no longer one!

I’ve got so much things to say right now!

But 

I won’t 

I’ve got to find peace of mind!
In the future you will now want my love 

And

I will sing that you must be out of your fucking mind!

Your Love will always be hustle

And

Although I will always love you

I have no more time for your silly games

You are living in a fools paradise

You can’t be a Man about it!

You can’t see me!

I am Magnificent 

My love is and will always be King!

There are so many lyrics 

So many melodies and harmonies that sing …. of you.

But

You can’t keep this Good Woman Down

You can not negate my Greatness!

I will not Retograde!

I will remember that I am 20ft Tall

I will receive More in Time

Jah Chariot a roll an it nah leave me behind!

© KLove 2017

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That Dream

That DreamThat dream was intense

My skin is clammy

That dream was immensely graphic 

I’m almost emabarrased to write it

Is it really possible to do that?

Can legs separate that far apart?

Can one a person climax so many more times than once

The thickness was so long

Is that possible?

The potential runs deep

Woke up feeling stretched out with absent heels on my feet!

Wrist feeling like memories of being held hostage!

The body feels tenderised!

That dream was a lot 

In that dream so were we!

© KLove 2017

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Stamp It Out!

Done good

Buy new trainers!

Amazing news and crippling news almost simultaneously

Buy new trainers!

Feel sad

Buy new trainers!

Feel betrayed

Buy new trainers!

Feel proud of yourself 

Buy new trainers!

Should be angry but not

Buy new trainers!

Disappointed

Buy new trainers!

Crushed,heartbroken (again), so stupid 

Buy new trainers

Still feel love 

Buy new trainers!

Achieved a massive achievement

Buy new trainers!

Wondering why not you

Buy new trainers!

Maybe because you are not a girly girl

Buy new (Jamaican swear word of your choice) trainers!

Not wearing a friggin dresses and converse (no offence, just not me)

Buy new trainers!

Not wearing dresses if I don’t have to infact

Buy new trainers!

I am Me

Buy new trainers!

Made to feel less

Buy new trainers!

Know that you are actually so much more than ready for

Buy new trainers!

Heart is happy

Buy new trainers!

Feel grateful 

Buy new trainers!

Heart is broken again

Buy new trainers!

Pictures and words going around and around in my head

Buy new trainers!

Not reacting

Buy new trainers!

Not rising to it

Buy new trainers!

Janckro,Crassis, 

Buy new trainers!

New chapter

Buy new trainers!

Walking into new light

In newly bought trainers!

Waking away from darkness

In newly bought trainers!

Forgiving, Forgetting, Being, Still Loving, Goddess stepping

In newly bought trainers!

Unbreakable, trusting the process 

In newly bought trainers!

I’m Buying new trainers!
© KLove 2017

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Whistles in the Wind

My energy…..you sucked on it like a long never ending cigarette!

You seemed to crave it in the same way.

Except my energy, despite its satisfying addictiveness, is not toxic

You wasted so much of it!

You ought to have ingested it

Instead You chose to blow it away

What a waste!
© KLove 2017

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It Will Take A While

When I’m like this it’s funny how i can be so scared but like the feeling
When I’m like this I am scared of the fast pace of my heart

But I like being able to feel the pace because I can feel that it is still beating!

When I’m like this I am scared of what I know is coming, however I welcome it at the same time because I know what comes with it is a release!

When I’m like this I don’t like it, however I know that it is my body clearing the blockage!

When I’m like this I normally count, forwards and backwards to disconnect my power from it, however today I’m not counting, I am not seeking the disconnect, I am holding on to the dizziness and I am rebelling against the/any/my weakness!

Its funny that today is the 1st time that I have noticed that when I am like this I don’t think!

It’s funny that when I am like this I don’t think, yet when I am like this it is because I have been overthinking!

Overthinking and over feeling and over controlling, yet when I am like this I am generally not in control!

Anxiety is an outward display of the contradictions within!

It’s funny how when I am like this I am numb, yet I can feel every feeling, I can hear every sound and despite how slow it all seems, I can see everything in high definition like clarity!

Some times Anxiety is an expression, a response to the entrenched and undeserved sadness and the unrequited love that the Love seeks!

Sometimes Anxiety just is.

It’s funny how despite the internal chaos that the feelings bring, the surrender to it brings with it feelings of peace!

Anxiety is like a looking glass facing in!

© KLove 2017

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Mood Rings 6: They don’t check in!

Love doesn’t always feel nice

I am love

Neither do I
Love often feels painful and isolating. It causes you to hurt

I am Love

I often feel these feelings

I am love
But…..

I hurt too
I have mastered the art of the the Game Face
But….

This really is not a Game!
I have mastered the art of the smile
But….

If I were asked to prove its credentials I would have nothing genuine to offer! 

It would be unsupported and invalid 
I have mastered the art of being unpresently present!
But….

Most are not close enough to see where I truly am!
I have mastered the art of silence!

Silence is the best discourse to mute judgement and lack of understanding Most do not seek answers

Most do not have accurate questions

Yet most feel qualified to judge
I have mastered the art of loving 

Of loving those who need love

Of loving those who are undeserved of the standard of my love

Most do not appreciate the apple tree effect of their being 

I have mastered the art of loving despite this
But…..

A master 

After years of mastering things

A true master 

has to retire eventually

A master 

After years of mastering things

A true master 

When there is nothing left to truly master 

A master 

A true master 

Knows that it is time to leave!

© KLove 2017

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Mood Rings 5: Weakness

I still check my phone for you Every morning 

I check for that once in a while made me smile all day though good morning text

Every so often throughout the day for that random Hi K….a, made my entire day though message 

Every end of the work day, journey home, should be resting in the evening, and several times before sleeping and hoping that I won’t dream about you whilst wanting to because I can just about still remember your face and the bass in your voice and the dreams are now the only time that I see and hear you!

My heart is miserable 

My heart is missing you

My mind less so, it is as usual in conflict with my heart

My mind as usual is addressing the elephant in our room

My mind is asking what in the actual fuck is that you are missing?

My mind is stating that this romanticised version of you is entirely made up!

My mind is reminding my heart of all the times you gave -0 fucks, every time you said words that left it immobile, beatless!

My mind reminds the heart of all of the cold words, of all of the (intentional or not) mind fucks that left it defunct 

My mind is as usual pissed off that the heart will not (Wo)man the fuck up!

My mind reminds the heart that it warned it not fuck with you again because each and every time it has it has only gotten fucked! (and if not in the pleasurable way there isn’t really a benefit so what is the point)

My mind is annoyed because it knows that My heart isn’t listening- it never does when it comes to you!

My mind knows that it cannot compete with the Love that is being carried for you!

I still check my phone for you!

I still wait for it to communicate you with me!

My heart is miserable 

My heart is missing you

My mind is pissed

Both can not wait for you and this moment to become historic!
© KLove 2017

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