Chained

I have been at War with myself again

It is a A silent, painful and frightening War

I have retreated into myself

Scared to come out

Not wanting to come out

I have been mute

My tongue has been ripped out- Just after my heart!

There have been signs

There are always signs deep within the thickness of my silence

Only those that are interested in reading the signs are able to understand my silent language

No one has searched for me

So my silence has been my friend and confidant

I have been at War with myself again

It is a A silent, painful and frightening War

The ugly duckling is back

And it had been so long

So long since we had been together

That I had distanced myself from memories of her cruelty.

It had been so long

So long since we had been together

That I had thought that we were done

I had thought that we had made peace

I had thought that we had set each other 3Free!

That notion now seems fanciful and foolish

Apparently she is not and will never be done with me

I have been at War with myself again

It is a A silent, painful and frightening War

There are always signs deep within the thickness of my silence.

The only one that can hear them is Me!

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Onwards

There has been so very much that has come and gone in 2017.

There has been consistency in Loss/Death/ Pain and Sadness.

There has been deaths of those still living!

There has been Devastation

There has been Change and Stagnancy

Books that are still un finished 🙍🏽🤦🏾‍♀️(me)

Words not said!

Absent apologies that were not needed for closure but for acknowledgement!

Support that ought to have come, yet didn’t from those said to love you, from those whom you being you have always supported.

All in all it has been a year of Muchness!

However……

You/ Me/ Us have survived it!

We pressers onwards in feelings and states of Pain, Devastation, Isolation, Confusion and Despair and Fear!

We have bent and flexed in and around Change!

We have Adapted!

We have Grown and Out Grown!

We have continued to Shine and to Outshine!!!!!!!

Most importantly….we have continued to Love!!! We have continued to Love in the absence of Love from others and even ourselves!

This year has been so very Much!

However it has also shown us so very Much and taught us so very Much about ourselves, about our internal strength, about our resilience and about our character.

It has shown us (appreciated or not) who we really are and most importantly who those around us Really Are!!!!!!

Allowing us to make informed decisions about the role that those around us should Really be playing in our lives and how much of a role they are deserved of us playing in theirs.

This year has been so very Much!

However it has been a year of Much Self Inventory, Growth and Over-Standing!

We will never be the same!

However, the Universe knows that in most if not all of these areas We were in need of drastic and immediate change!

The Buddha says that “before great change there is ultimate Chaos”!

We can now move on. We can now truly start over! We are now able to let go, yet hold people accountable for their part in any of our pain or hurt! Despite acknowledgment or ownership of their wrongs and/or impact!

They no longer dictate how we should feel of be affected by their actions or in actions.

This year has been so very Much!

However we are Stronger having made it through!!!

We move forward, No grudges held!

We move forward adorned in our Knowledge, Power, Blessings and our Love!

We move onwards knowing that Knowledge is every sense of the word will always = Our Power!

Nothing before it’s time!

Unlike most I use my social media to share real life thoughts, feelings, experiences, in the hopes that people will not feel isolated or ashamed. Also to encourage others to do the same.

Whatever this (calendar) New Year this 11/2 Year brings we will get through it.

Together!

It may not always look graceful, but we will get through it. There is no other way than forward. We don’t have the option or the luxury of standing still so we will Always keep it moving!

We have got this!

I have got you!

The US in our WE is OUR vehicle!

K L❤️VE’s YOU!

Happy New Page!

Big Love

Always More Light

😘😘😘Mwaaahhhh😘😘😘

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I have tried to Tune into you on so many of these days.

These days where it has been or become so…..that I would not even be mad, historically wouldn’t matter

I tried so many times to tune into you, like before, I would channel you and you would Be there.

But there is nothing

There has been nothing

And then it dawns on me

I can no longer tune into you

I can no longer channel you

You can no longer hear me or feel my frequency

I can no longer Tune into You!

Because I am no longer connected!

Merely static and silence remains!

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Moonshine

These Moons!🙍🏽🤦🏾‍♀️💆🏾

They incite the unspoken emotions, the unspoken words, the feelings that have been buried in reading books and distraction.

There is only so long one can distract from oneself!

There are only so many words, other people’s word and stories that you can hide behind!

These last 2 moons have followed me.

They have watched me sleep and followed me on the run.

But what do you do with the unspoken words that you can’t speak unto anyone but your distraction.

The unspoken words that make those who should do better by you uncomfortable!

What can you do but swallow them and hope that they do not cause you to contract!

These moons!

There is much hate in this love that we have.

Staring at me will not make me spit!

It’s neither lady like nor refined!

Staking me will not coherse me from the tip of this verbal breakdown!

Shining a light on me will not make me strip!

If you looked deep enough, you will see that I am already bare!

There is nothing left but bile!

These Moons!

Incite the now waterless tears.

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The Process

I have been berating myself for not writing enough this year.

And then I open my books and find several words on several pieces of paper!

And realise that there are 100 plus notes in my phone🙍🏽

Some just one word ( to remind me of a thought or feeling I imagine)

And I realise that, I have been processing

I have, been writing it out

I have, been writing as therapy

Just not in the way that I normally do

There is no order

No neatness

No prescription

There has been no control

I have been emulating my mindset

I have been enumulting the inside of my head and my heart!

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Amongst the Silence

I have become able in the ability to own who I am, what I do, how I feel, how I love, how I interact and don’t interact, how I feel and don’t feel, who I like and who I don’t like, why I like and don’t like, why I will never be the same with some people again but can still love them from a distance, why I prefer to be with just me yet crave presence, how I can be with just me and yet crave a presence, who I see in my sadness and who I hear in my joy, why I feel so much yet feel numb for the most part!

I have become able in the ability to own who I am, what I do, how I feel, how I love!

I have become able in the ability to own who I am! Through all of my times, through all of my periods, through all of the getting through, I have become able in the ability to own who I am!

It may not be apparent to you!

I may not communicate it!

I don’t have to!

It’s matter for me, me and me too!

I have become able in the ability to own who I am, what I do, how I feel, how I love,

Quietly

In my space

Over, under and inside my processing!

I have become able in the ability to own who I am, what I do, how I feel, how I love!

I have become able in the ability to own My Aura, My Energy, My being!

I have become able in the ability to own all that is Me!

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So Tired

If the dreams are internal windows

What are the nightmares

Messages?

Warnings?

What is the benefit of the nightmare other than a reminder that the Hunan body can survive on less than 8 hours sleep.

Less than 4. 3 infact!

Or maybe to remind of strength, because when you wake up petrified or gasping for air, or crying, or maybe all of the above, you have to have some kind of strength to close your eyes again right? Knowing that there may be more to come.

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