When I’m like this it’s funny how i can be so scared but like the feeling
When I’m like this I am scared of the fast pace of my heart
But I like being able to feel the pace because I can feel that it is still beating!
When I’m like this I am scared of what I know is coming, however I welcome it at the same time because I know what comes with it is a release!
When I’m like this I don’t like it, however I know that it is my body clearing the blockage!
When I’m like this I normally count, forwards and backwards to disconnect my power from it, however today I’m not counting, I am not seeking the disconnect, I am holding on to the dizziness and I am rebelling against the/any/my weakness!
Its funny that today is the 1st time that I have noticed that when I am like this I don’t think!
It’s funny that when I am like this I don’t think, yet when I am like this it is because I have been overthinking!
Overthinking and over feeling and over controlling, yet when I am like this I am generally not in control!
Anxiety is an outward display of the contradictions within!
It’s funny how when I am like this I am numb, yet I can feel every feeling, I can hear every sound and despite how slow it all seems, I can see everything in high definition like clarity!
Some times Anxiety is an expression, a response to the entrenched and undeserved sadness and the unrequited love that the Love seeks!
Sometimes Anxiety just is.
It’s funny how despite the internal chaos that the feelings bring, the surrender to it brings with it feelings of peace!
Anxiety is like a looking glass facing in!
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