Benign!

It has been just over 48 hours since it was confirmed that I do not in fact have Breast Cancer!

It has been just over 4 weeks since the possibility of me having Breast Cancer became real!

It has been just over 4 weeks of revisiting a place of anxiety that I was sure that I would never visit again!

Yet is has been just over 4 weeks of making decisions in a place of peace!

It has been just over 4 weeks of revisiting a place of loneliness that I was sure that I would never visit again!

It has been just under 10 months since my cousin died of Breast Cancer. She was just 48!

It has been just under 10 months since I discovered that we were so very similar and that we actually were and did a lot of things the same!

It has been just under 4 years since My Mary died of cancer!

It has been just under 4 years; since my life changed in a way that I would never be the same!

I did not know how to pen these words

I did not know how to express these emotions.

I did however know that I had to, there is a

message amongst all of his chaos that again I have been chosen to relay!

It has been just over 48 hours since it was confirmed that I do not in fact have Breast Cancer!

I have been given the all clear, yet I know that I will never again feel or be the same!

I have unfortunately experienced many person altering and life changing things.

This was not actually the worst, but it has been the most teaching!

When faced with the possibility of life cut short, of quality of life significantly impaired, all you want to do is live!

I have been given the all clear, yet I know that I will never again feel or be the same!

Many of my relationships will never be the same. Some will not survive! I will not explain, but if ever there was a time to make time, it would have been within the last just over 28 days!

I have been given the all clear, yet I know that I will never again feel or be the same!

Time is precious, neither to be taken for granted, nor thrown away!

People are precious, neither to be taken for granted, under loved – They may just be taken away!

© KLove 21/02/18
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Chained

I have been at War with myself again

It is a A silent, painful and frightening War

I have retreated into myself

Scared to come out

Not wanting to come out

I have been mute

My tongue has been ripped out- Just after my heart!

There have been signs

There are always signs deep within the thickness of my silence

Only those that are interested in reading the signs are able to understand my silent language

No one has searched for me

So my silence has been my friend and confidant

I have been at War with myself again

It is a A silent, painful and frightening War

The ugly duckling is back

And it had been so long

So long since we had been together

That I had distanced myself from memories of her cruelty.

It had been so long

So long since we had been together

That I had thought that we were done

I had thought that we had made peace

I had thought that we had set each other 3Free!

That notion now seems fanciful and foolish

Apparently she is not and will never be done with me

I have been at War with myself again

It is a A silent, painful and frightening War

There are always signs deep within the thickness of my silence.

The only one that can hear them is Me!

© KLove 2018

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Bonnie & Clyde

Bonnie and Clyde

On the run

So that he isn’t him and she isn’t she!

So that they can be We!

So that they can be free!

On the run

From the past and the present

So that a future can be!

So that a future can be more than just words and hopes and possibly a foolish dream

On the run

Running away from difference and perception

From moments of fear and doubt, from logic and reason

So that all that there is, is the abundance of Love and acceptance that he brings!

On the run

From themselves and the reality of their forbidden and unexplainable,yet real Love

On the run

So that they can just Be!

She wants to run, now

Because the reality is always lurking

Because If they stay

Reality will never allow them to be!

They will have to run

They will have to run

So that they can be Free!

A King and his Isis!

On the run

So that he isn’t him and she is not she!

So that they can be We!

So that they can be free!

© KLove 2018

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Shining

He causes my water to ripple as I lead him into bliss!

Blissfully pulling him forwards

He his behind but is always facing his sun

The moon and the stars are in my eyes also!

He comes to me bare! Striped down to nothing. Naked and exposed!

He comes to me like this for my healing

He comes to me like this, naked and exposed in trust and warranted expectation of my ability to lead him into my now still water that reflects his light!

His light, the light that he seeks, radiates the parameters of my essence and shines in the direction of his sun!

He likes to hold my hand whilst he wades in my still water.

My palms hold stories untold and trace answers to the questions that unwise men could not read!

My hands dictate teachings, teachings and lessons that travel out and map across my naked skin.

These teachings compass his search for his light.

He holds onto them, my hands, in his earnest, he holds on to them as the silent words penetrate the noise within karmic conversation!

We are combined in our silence!

He is a King, forward led by a (K)ween!

Naked in her craft and her being, stories and teachings mapped out over her Majesty!

He will follow, He will wade in her waters!

She will lead him to his light and his Sun!

She will provide his Peace.

© KLove 2018

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Onwards

There has been so very much that has come and gone in 2017.

There has been consistency in Loss/Death/ Pain and Sadness.

There has been deaths of those still living!

There has been Devastation

There has been Change and Stagnancy

Books that are still un finished 🙍🏽🤦🏾‍♀️(me)

Words not said!

Absent apologies that were not needed for closure but for acknowledgement!

Support that ought to have come, yet didn’t from those said to love you, from those whom you being you have always supported.

All in all it has been a year of Muchness!

However……

You/ Me/ Us have survived it!

We pressers onwards in feelings and states of Pain, Devastation, Isolation, Confusion and Despair and Fear!

We have bent and flexed in and around Change!

We have Adapted!

We have Grown and Out Grown!

We have continued to Shine and to Outshine!!!!!!!

Most importantly….we have continued to Love!!! We have continued to Love in the absence of Love from others and even ourselves!

This year has been so very Much!

However it has also shown us so very Much and taught us so very Much about ourselves, about our internal strength, about our resilience and about our character.

It has shown us (appreciated or not) who we really are and most importantly who those around us Really Are!!!!!!

Allowing us to make informed decisions about the role that those around us should Really be playing in our lives and how much of a role they are deserved of us playing in theirs.

This year has been so very Much!

However it has been a year of Much Self Inventory, Growth and Over-Standing!

We will never be the same!

However, the Universe knows that in most if not all of these areas We were in need of drastic and immediate change!

The Buddha says that “before great change there is ultimate Chaos”!

We can now move on. We can now truly start over! We are now able to let go, yet hold people accountable for their part in any of our pain or hurt! Despite acknowledgment or ownership of their wrongs and/or impact!

They no longer dictate how we should feel of be affected by their actions or in actions.

This year has been so very Much!

However we are Stronger having made it through!!!

We move forward, No grudges held!

We move forward adorned in our Knowledge, Power, Blessings and our Love!

We move onwards knowing that Knowledge is every sense of the word will always = Our Power!

Nothing before it’s time!

Unlike most I use my social media to share real life thoughts, feelings, experiences, in the hopes that people will not feel isolated or ashamed. Also to encourage others to do the same.

Whatever this (calendar) New Year this 11/2 Year brings we will get through it.

Together!

It may not always look graceful, but we will get through it. There is no other way than forward. We don’t have the option or the luxury of standing still so we will Always keep it moving!

We have got this!

I have got you!

The US in our WE is OUR vehicle!

K L❤️VE’s YOU!

Happy New Page!

Big Love

Always More Light

😘😘😘Mwaaahhhh😘😘😘

© KLove 21/02/17
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Adapter

I have tried to Tune into you on so many of these days.

These days where it has been or become so…..that I would not even be mad, historically wouldn’t matter

I tried so many times to tune into you, like before, I would channel you and you would Be there.

But there is nothing

There has been nothing

And then it dawns on me

I can no longer tune into you

I can no longer channel you

You can no longer hear me or feel my frequency

I can no longer Tune into You!

Because I am no longer connected!

Merely static and silence remains!

© KLove 2017

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Moonshine

These Moons!🙍🏽🤦🏾‍♀️💆🏾

They incite the unspoken emotions, the unspoken words, the feelings that have been buried in reading books and distraction.

There is only so long one can distract from oneself!

There are only so many words, other people’s word and stories that you can hide behind!

These last 2 moons have followed me.

They have watched me sleep and followed me on the run.

But what do you do with the unspoken words that you can’t speak unto anyone but your distraction.

The unspoken words that make those who should do better by you uncomfortable!

What can you do but swallow them and hope that they do not cause you to contract!

These moons!

There is much hate in this love that we have.

Staring at me will not make me spit!

It’s neither lady like nor refined!

Staking me will not coherse me from the tip of this verbal breakdown!

Shining a light on me will not make me strip!

If you looked deep enough, you will see that I am already bare!

There is nothing left but bile!

These Moons!

Incite the now waterless tears.

© KLove 2017

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