Sitting here with that Sunday anxiety that I haven’t had to feel in a while.
Starting at a new job tomorrow.
Having resigned from the last and having a brief timeout.
Always been a reliable slave to the Babylon system.
Always worried about ends meeting, bills being paid.
But that last place was ….
So I took a deep breath and I resigned.
My path, my destiny. Right?
Years of study, professional qualifications, letters after my name!
I am not a “professional slave”.
I will no longer be held by emotional or your financial whips, or chains.
This last year I have been forced to overstand my inner strength!
These last few weeks have been bitter sweet!
And amazing, pivotal, necessary in the transition, evolution, trusting and loving of Me!
I didn’t see it coming. I just knew at that point that I had to stop, pause, reflect.
So I blew my own whistle! TIME OUT!
I have slept, and read, and interacted, been silent,
Been ME, again.
I have seen the home that I kill myself to pay the mortgage on. For more than 3/4 hours a day.
Life is full of signs. We don’t always see them. We don’t always want to see them.
We walk with our eyes wide shut!
But these last few weeks I have kept my eyes, ears and heart wide open!
Not looking for, yet seeing all of the signs being sent for me.
Am I ready to go back into the system?
To racing with the rats?
But this timeout has allowed me to modernise, revamp, re stock, my armoury.
Today Jill told me that ” when I wake up it will be Beautiful”
As I write Natalie is speaking, to me.
“Sometimes we need a place to start again, it doesn’t have to roll on, start again, pick up the pieces, heal within, re birth, re born, moving on, evolution”
Life is full of signs.
Mine let me know that I am going to be just fine!
I took a brief timeout, the world however kept moving and tomorrow I will be playing catch up!
But I will do so with a renewed sense of me!
Because (As Eva Poet puts it) I will always Belove and I will continue to Believe!
© KLove 2013