I Know Me (edited and revised 2019)

I know me!

I been hearing that I’m ugly, unattractive, repulsive, ill mannered, not good enough, secondary,not to your taste.
I been looking behind me, today at least 3x,
I find your opinion hard to process, to accept, exactly on what or whom is it based?
In fact I refuse to accept it. I will have no regard to any of your reasoning should you have any!

How dare you categorise or stereotype me in this way!

I won’t allow it to go down this way.

I know and have always known exactly who I am, and that is everything, every woman, every feeling, every blessing, every Godly beautiful, magical amazing thing that words can describe or that the Most High could create.

I know that I am Love, and Life and Power and Light and intelligence, and elegance, and strength, and worth and sexy!

I stand against your talk and your opinion, your objectification,and your perceptions,with my head held way up high!!!

I have not and will not worry about your so called perceptions, because I know me, and my sisters and my friends and my family, and we do not in any shape or form reflect what it is that you so erroneously see or recklessly speak!

I have never and will never penetrate any of the negativity that you are apparently aiming at me!

I laugh at the notion that I am not deemed sexy, because I know that I have always and historically been every Babylonians fantasy!

However what disturbs me is that this talk, these opinions, these perceptions are becoming more frequently expressed, making it harder to avoid having/ voicing an opinion on it, making it harder of it not to speak!

And what’s worse and even more disturbing is that it appears that this talk, and these opinions and these perceptions are coming from those that are meant to be protecting me.

How can it be that my own Black man attaches no respect, worth or value to the kinship in our Melanin.

Choosing European features over Natural Queen!

This indoctrination has run far too deep!

Mind f..in to say the least!

How can you despise this colour that is the same as what in your mirror you see?

Your sisters and female family members look just like me!

The depth of your issues in my humble opinion are beyond any Dr’s ability to treat!

I, could never hate you as you appear to do me. In fact what I feel for you is much pity!

Hopefully you will never father children as no matter what you say or choose to see, genetics are fact! Your children will always be half of your genetic history. They will always be half you ancestors, half of your mother, sisters, cousins, nieces, half of Me!

I feel sorry for your mother, she mush be so disappointed as embarrassed to know that this talk that she too has heard of, comes from her own sons mouth!

How can you despise what it is that gave you life, who nurtured, fed, clothed and foughtfor you, who made you who you are and whom you travelled through into this life that you are able to live?

It’s not for me to convince you however, you are free to make your choice, we live in a time of freedom of speech apparently!

Your opinion is your opinion, but I will always disagree,

Because I know Black women and I know Me!

Because I know that the Black in the woman equals unequivocal, undeniable beauty and positivity !

I wish you the best in your future endeavours, live happily.

I won’t miss you or your talk, your opinions or your perceptions, because I know Me!

I am blessed and highly favoured, I will always live Royally!

This applies to my sisters, my friends and my family, so I will say with all the Love I can muster, that you can take your talk,and your opinions and your perceptions and do something with them that an elegant and royal lady would never speak!

© KLove 2013( revised and edited 2019)

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Deep Breaths

Today I release you from Me!

I have carried you unwilling all of these years!

On my back

On my head like a Calabash, heavy and full of unripened fruit despite the sun vigorously shining upon it!

In my eyes that despite being light brown, do not glow, when your memories are in them!

Today I release you from Me!

All of you

All of the hands that touched parts of Me that were mine only!

All of the hands that touched parts of me that were not developed- those hands that I have never spoken but I carried on my lips, despite all of the speaking and 3Freeing!

Today I release you from Me

All of you

Those who did not use hands but words and silence and actions that in the same way violated and abused!

Today I release you from Me

I will not continue to hinder my balance or stunt my growth with the burden of your weight!

You will not continue to cause my legs to buckle!

I will not continue to hinder my balance or stunt my growth with the burden of your weight!

Whilst you Live

Whilst you Live!

Unburdened, In feeling, in colour, in Free!

I will not continue to hinder my balance or stunt my growth with the burden of your weight!

I will not continue to simply exist, numb, in your shadow or the box that I created because you trapped me!

Today I release you from Me

Today I release you from my sadness, despairing, anxiety, my discomfort with Me

Today I release you from all of Me

I will no longer carry you on my back or on my head, like a Calabash, heavy and full of unripened fruit despite the sun vigorously shining upon it!

Today I release you from Me!

© KLove 2019
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You!

This is how I will feel

I will feel the sun beating on my golden skin

I will feel clear blue clouds hovering over my my tight curls

I will feel the softness of each amalgamated grain of sand underneath my feet

I will feel the peacefulness and calm that bellows from the sounds of the sea

This is how I will feel

When you are with Me!

© KLove 2019
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Crushed!

Crushed!!

February 2010, the last time that I had sex.

42….. ,hormones are raging in several ways!

Despite missing it in the teenage days, I now have blemishes and marks on my face

I look at myself with distaste

I look at myself with panic that won’t settle, wont ease, won’t erase, what if these marks won’t dissipate!

I look at myself with panic that won’t settle, wont ease, won’t erase!

I look at Him!

The one that I have been looking at, until He looks at Me,and I bow my head, because shyness and insecurity dictate!

I look at Him in all of His majestic beautifulness, (not even a word) in all off His strength, mapping each vein in his arm and each defined contour of His chiseled back and I panic!

I panic! I convince myself that He won’t be able to see past the physical manifestations of internal in balance and melancholy to see my true face.

It is beautiful. (I know this to be true, despite not feeling its truth)

It is a beautiful face!

A physical, metaphorical, a spiritual, depiction of trauma, struggle, strength, wisdom, pain, overcoming, understanding, abuse, isolation, hurt, confusion, becoming, peace, angst, contoured in LOVE! Ancestor brown, colour that matches the colour of eyes that have seen too much, but also too little! Eyes that hold many secrets but more Love in their back. Eyes, that hold Him!

I look at Him in all of His majestic beautifulness (not even a word) in all off His strength, mapping each vein in His arm and each defined contour of His chiseled back and I panic!

I panic! I convince myself that He won’t be able to see past the physical manifestations of internal in balance and melancholy to see my true face.

What is in the dark always comes to light so eventually the marks will fade!

I worry that by this time though….

That, the me inside will fade!

Inside my intimacy is where I feel most safe!

42…….,hormones are raging!

Causing panic and confusion!

Causing internal and emotional disarray!

Stirring internal and emotional dialogue however. Tingling life into numbness!

Injecting emotion into man made blockages!

If He knew that I was looking at Him….

I worry what He would say!

© KLove 2019
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Game Face

I

Smile

A

Lot

But

I

Don’t

Smile

Often

I

Smile

A

Lot

But

How

Is

A

Smile

Sure

That

It

Is

A

Smile

I

Smile

A

Lot

But

How

Does

A

Person

Determine

If

My

Smile

Is

Actually

A

Smile

I

Smile

A

Lot

But

I

Hide

Many

Things

In

My

Smile

Too

I

Smile

A

Lot

But

I

Hide

More

I

Smile

A

Lot

But

Very

Rarely

Am

I

Smiling

© KLove 2019

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Pisces

Caught in the Love

It is deep

He is deep in me

He is deeply into me

We are deeply in.. to..

We are beyond each other

Caught in the Love

In this display of Love in Motion

Caught in the Love

It is Fluid

We bend and shape within it

Emersed

Yet we merge within it

Caught in the Love

Cosmically, Karmically, Freely

Caught in the Love

It is deep

He is deep in me

He is deeply into me

We are deeply in.. to..

We are beyond each other

© KLove 2019

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