My Dreams

My dreams So Lucid

I remember each one

So Lucid despite the lack of sleep 

Despite how short each one is

Dreams

Day ones

Night ones 

But always 

Lucid

You always visit!

❤️

Then I wake up missing you!

Missing us

Missing the things

Those things done and said and sometimes screamed!

So Lucid

You always visit 

❤️

So that I don’t forget you I think 

I couldn’t 

All these lifetimes of meetings and run ins

How could I forget you!

We have so many more lifetimes to keep meeting in 

I have so many more dreams to dream you in!

You always visit 

You are so Lucid

I see and feel you fluidly!

Hurry back to me!

❤️
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39.99 (Approaching 40)- 0 10 Feelings

(0 10 Feelings)I like voices

He voices

Him voices 

I like the bass

I like depth within 

I like the pronunciation

Even though it is so far removed from mine

I like the sound

I can feel the lips as they curl around the words!

I hear the softness in the lips as each word leaves

They sound kissable

They sound like they feel sensual 

But also dangerous 

I like the cracks in the voice

It sounds raspy sometimes 

It reminds me of clean crisp bedsheets on a Sunday late afternoon lay in

I don’t know why

Maybe I just want to lay in it 

I like this particular voice

I find that it soothes

I think I might like to stroke it

Long stokes! 

I think I might like to hold it or to wrap my hands around it!

Softly 

For long periods of consolidated and isolated time!

In stillness 

The voice makes me like him

It makes me feel connected 

I have to concentrate 

I think maybe the voice could talk me out of items and into positions

Focus!

I think maybe it would sound Beautiful against my skin

And in the nape of my neck

Whispers buried deep

Imagine; all of that bass spoken into density!

I imagine it to sound like thick sticky molasses!

I think I might like to open wide and swallow it whole 

His voice 

I like it

My female likes to follow its lead

It feels directed

It makes me think of that time when the 0 preceded the 10

Archived memories

I miss this voice 

Even when I am hearing it
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39.99(Approaching 40- The Process)

Part of my journey It’s a process!!

It’s painful 

It has been painful

However, it is Mandatory!
And I have had my time of feeling “not enough”

At nearly 40 I still have these times!
Not pretty enough

Not fat enough

Not thin enough

Not sexy enough

Not hood enough

Not woman enough
Not enough!!!!!
However and it has taken nearly 40 years for me to see….

I am and will always be ME enough!   

I am and will always be Enough for ME!!
It’s a process!!

It’s part of the journey 

Part of my journey 

It’s a process!!

It’s painful 

It has been painful

However, it is Mandatory!

❤️

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39.99(Approaching 40)

39.99(Approaching 40)
People keep asking about the external changes I will make for my 40

Wear a little make up

Thread your eyebrows?

I am working on changes, but none that can be physically seen

I’m working on beautifying internally

Make up

Eyebrows 

Do not maketh me

Nearly 40 years naturally 

No desire to be or live differently

And not because I am free of hang ups or insecurities 

I am riddled with them

They course through my shyness daily!

They empower my issues with rejection!

They have frequent and vast discourse with my singular, debating as to whether they are the cause

However

I stand firm in my comfort of being this version of me

In my naturalness 

My concern and attention will always be directed at ensuring that I am internally shining!

Because….

It’s only my Inner Glow that I will allow to define me!

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Theme song 

I hadn’t been playing my theme song of late
This morning I had it on repeat for the whole two hours of my run!

I was reminded that I’ve got this

I’ve got me!

I may not be everyone’s choice but I’m my choice always!!

I was reminded that not matter what or who my heart is pure!

I was reminded why I am who I am and why I started this!

I was reminded why I started this!!!!

I was reminded that Love and Pain is what drives it!

I was reminded that Love and Pain is what drives Me! 

Because no matter who or what is said or what is done, You Can’t Keep a Good Woman Down!

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#letstalkaboutloveandpain

Fucking Idiot!

Is it true love, or stupidity, or delusions grandieur even?

I believe it’s true love

When you can love someone but watch as they mentally and/or physically love someone else!

And not just watch, but feel it, when you can feel them loving someone else, when you can feel them loving someone else in their speech, in their silence, in their angst, in their tone, in their unsaid words, in their always impacted mood!

I believe it’s true love when you can despite your love and need and want, support them in their loving of someone else!

Someone Not You!

I believe it’s love when you withhold your feelings and attachmenent to them!

When your  love is bubbling like a hot, angry, rampant, destructive, I’ll tempered lava!

Yet you do not speak it to them, instead you plead with yourself to be quiet as you encourage them and empower them to fight for the love of someone else!

Someone Not You!

I believe it’s true undiluted, ridiculously blind, fucked up love when you suppress and hide and store and choke on your love, so much that it incites a bile to swish to a surface that allows it to feel free and unburdened!

Whilst they love someone else!

Someone Not You!

I believe it’s true yet self destructive, self loathing, disconnected with the beauty and importance and value of self love, when you allow this to happen repeatedly! When you allow them back into your love again, when you allow them access to your love despite knowing them! When you allow them back into your love despite knowing that they will take it, all of it, with no guilt! When you allow them access to your beautiful yet silent love over and over again, and at the expense of better  used tears! And rejection issues that only appear when they are here!

I believe it’s true love when you hide behind the word “friendship” because it is more  palatable and easier to digest than the words ” them no longer being here”! When despite your love being unspoken they would have to be  both sight and hearing impaired not to know that it is there!

And they are Not!

So you know really that they are happy to take and use and love your love with no intention of reciprocation, with no intention of giving you theirs!

Because

Theirs, theirs is reserved for use elsewhere!  

Their love is to be used to love someone else!

SOMEONE NOT YOU!

It’s love!

I know it’s love!

True fucking stupid love!

I just don’t know how to extinguish it, or how to reject it before it becomes the reject!

Because

As much as I know it’s love, I also know that rejection will follow the use of it! It did in the past, it will again!

So that that they can go back to, or go onto loving someone else!

Someone Not You!
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39.99 (Approaching 40) New Moon Intentions!

New Moon!
I don’t want no more pain

I don’t want no more hurt

I don’t want no more uncertainty 

I don’t want no more trials

I don’t want no more tests of my strength or endurance 

I don’t want no more woe

I don’t want no more sleepless nights

I don’t want no more nightmares or night sweats

I don’t want no more anxiety 

I don’t want no more low mood

I don’t want no more post eating disorder issues

I don’t want no more loneliness (as much as I like being alone)

I don’t want no more wolves in sheeps clothing

I don’t want no more unreciprocated Love

I don’t want no more love thiefs

I don’t want no more liars 

I don’t want no more broken heart beats

I don’t want no more days without hugs

I don’t want more nights without hugs

I don’t want no more late nights and early mornings on my own!

I don’t want no more me sometimes!

I don’t want no more!!!!

New Moon!

I don’t want no more than I deserve!

I don’t want no more of all of this less either!

© KLove 2017

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